I believe, help my unbelief!

18 Jan

There have been numerous times in my life when I’ve really struggled with such verses as Matthew 21:22, “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

At first glance, that sure seems like we can “wish” for anything and just believe we’re going to get it and we will.  It’s a little tempting to say “Dear God, May I have a million dollars? I believe I’m going to receive it. Amen.”  And POOF – there’s your money.

Let’s look at the verse in a little deeper context.

18 Early in the morning, as he was on his way back to the city, he was hungry. 19 Seeing a fig tree by the road, he went up to it but found nothing on it except leaves. Then he said to it, “May you never bear fruit again!” Immediately the tree withered.

20 When the disciples saw this, they were amazed. “How did the fig tree wither so quickly?” they asked.

21 Jesus replied, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done. 22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

There are a number of people who believe this was spoken to the disciples and was meant for them. As in, today, this doesn’t apply to us.  Any Christian today can’t just walk up to a fig tree and say “wither” and it will, even if they believe.

What do you think?

For me, what I discovered of myself if that I have yet to get my mind completely around “if you believe.”

I don’t know what is going on in your life right now that has you down on your knees asking for a miracle – but no doubt at one time or another, we all face these similar things.

– God, we don’t have enough money to pay our bills, HELP!

– God, my child is sick, it’s out of my hands, the doctors don’t know what else to do, HELP!

– God, I’ve crunched all the numbers, there is no way we can sell this house, HELP!

– God, we want a baby so badly…we’re doing everything right.  Why can’t we get pregnant? HELP!

– God, my spouse is so blind to the way they’re treating me and how lonely/hurt/frustrated/depressed/defeated/disrespected/unloved I feel in my marriage.  HELP!

– God, I’m so miserable at my job.  They treat me so poorly.  I’m afraid to quit because I don’t have anything else lined up and there are no other jobs out there/or/ I don’t have a college degree.  HELP!

– God, my loved one is so blind to the truth of scripture.  I can’t seem to say anything that breaks their hard heart.  I don’t want to see them end up in Hell.  HELP!

Let me share a story from the Bible with you that is SO MUCH MORE a fit for me!

17 And one of the crowd answered Him, “Teacher, I brought You my son, possessed with a spirit which makes him mute; 18 and [k]whenever it seizes him, it [l]slams him to the ground and he foams at the mouth, and grinds his teeth and [m]stiffens out. I told Your disciples to cast it out, and they could not do it.” 19 And He *answered them and *said, “O unbelieving generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring him to Me!” 20 They brought [n]the boy to Him. When he saw Him, immediately the spirit threw him into a convulsion, and falling to the ground, he began rolling around and foaming at the mouth. 21 And He asked his father, “How long has this been happening to him?” And he said, “From childhood. 22 It has often thrown him both into the fire and into the water to destroy him. But if You can do anything, take pity on us and help us!” 23 And Jesus said to him, “‘If You can?’ All things are possible to him who believes.” 24 Immediately the boy’s father cried out and said, “I do believe; help my unbelief.”

Yes – now THAT nails it!

I believe God CAN do what I’m praying about.  But in the back of my mind rolls around all the “logical” stuff.  You know, something more along the lines of “But WILL God” AND “What if He doesn’t” AND “What measures can I put into place next incase God doesn’t answer this how I’m praying.”

The truth be told,  have I EVER asked anything of God with 100% undeniable belief?  I want to say YES because I DO believe God is CAPABLE… but the reality for me is that I’m sure there is unbelief below what I even admit to myself at times about whether or not He WILL. And protection of my heart just incase He doesn’t.

My prayer life changed a year ago.

For one (for another post) I recognize the sin in my life that hinders my prayers.

And two, I am more keenly aware of my unbelief and I pray for God to help my unbelief.

Practical Application:

Ask yourself – do you have any unbelief?

Make a list of all the ways you’ve prayed over something, but put special measures in place to still kinda try to handle it all yourself JUST INCASE God didn’t show up or answer you in a way that feels like He’s helping and working things together for your good.


2 Responses to “I believe, help my unbelief!”

  1. peacefulwife January 18, 2013 at 8:02 pm #

    Kayla – This is SO BEAUTIFUL! I’m very glad you are sharing all that God is showing you. Thank you for being such a blessing! LOVE IT!

    • Kayla Gulick January 18, 2013 at 8:11 pm #

      Thank you April. Always praying my blog honors the Lord and reaches those who can benefit from what I’m learning too! Thank you for sharing kind affirmation with me!

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