I’d never do THAT.

5 Jan

2015 was Hell.

There I said it.  Maybe that was obvious by the fact that this blog, the one in which I would publish 4-8 posts per month, dwindled down to 2, yes TWO posts for ALL of 2015.

But just in case that wasn’t obvious enough, I thought I’d just be honest with the very first sentence.

I think we all have a  list of things we’d never do.  You know, “Sins” *We’d*  never commit.

We might know in our minds that it’s not proper to say that.  So we cover it with something like “Given the right circumstances, everyone is capable of any sin. That’s why it’s crucial that we all stay close to Jesus and stay humble.”  We may even throw in the scripture that says “Pride comes before a fall” as a way to proclaim we’re not too confident or arrogant.

Do you know how to know when this is façade or actually a real belief?

When we watch how we react, what we feel, what we say and how we treat someone who does one of things on our secret list of things we’d never do.

“What a loser, why can’t he keep a job and support his family”

“What a creep, I don’t see what’s so hard about not visiting the disgusting porn websites.  Just knock it off.”

“What a slut, how about you don’t ruin your marriage and sleep with someone else’s husband.”

“What a pervert, she honestly had sex with her student?”

“He was stealing from the church?  Nice.  What a low-life pastor he was.”

Get the picture?

If our initial reaction is something like that and not something like “That’s a horrible sin to be caught up in.  He / She clearly needs to repent and find forgiveness in Jesus to be changed and redeemed.  I pray this situation ends in God’s glory and not the triumph of Satan” then we might know that we really do have a list of “Well, I’d never do that.” And that usually leads us to be the judge (and likely even the gossip and/or mocker) to those who commit those sins.

In my Bible and Journal time today I was reflecting on Peter and realized fully that he was a guy who had a list of sins he’d never commit. In Matthew 26:33 & 35 we see him tell Jesus (after Jesus tells him he’s going to deny him three times) “Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will. Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.”

And yet, given the right timing, circumstances, temptation, situation… Peter DID deny Christ, THREE times.

What’s more shocking than that is Jesus’s understanding of the situation, which we get a much better view of in Luke 22:31. “Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you Simon that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”

There is a LOT there for us to unpack.

First of all – Jesus knew Peter was going to deny him.  And yet He loved Peter before he denied Him, and He loved him after.

Secondly, Satan asked permission to tempt Peter.  Do you get how really huge that is?  Satan has to ASK PERMISSION to tempt us.  But more over, Jesus knew that Peter was going to fail and He said yes anyway. 

Third, Jesus PRAYED for Peter.  Can you imagine Jesus praying for you?  Because I fully believe He does.  Just like He prayed that Peter’s faith may not fail.

Fourth, Jesus says “AND WHEN YOU TURN BACK” – He knew Peter would fail the test.  THREE TIMES. And yet, He knew Peter would turn back and Jesus was there.  He resolved and disclosed to Peter before he failed that He was still going to be right there. No matter if it was something as big as disowning Jesus himself.

And lastly, Jesus says “Strengthen your brothers”  I think He’s saying – don’t waste even this.  Don’t use your victories alone to point people to me.  Use every last betrayal, denial, failure and sin to strengthen those around you.  Whether their mimicking your sins, or committing those awful terrible sins you’d never commit yourself. Strengthen your brothers with your own understanding of Satan’s temptations and your own need for mercy and grace.

Practical Application:

Write your list (that you don’t actually have) down of things you’d never do.

And then confess to God that apart from Him, you’re capable of all those things.  And pray for the strength to resist Satan if He ever asks permission to test and tempt you in any of those ways.

God forbid you ever taste the horrible guilt and devastation that comes from doing something you never thought you’d do.


12 Responses to “I’d never do THAT.”

  1. Stephanie January 5, 2016 at 3:50 pm #

    Welcome back!!!

    • Kayla Gulick January 5, 2016 at 3:56 pm #

      Thanks! This should be a good year…. I have a lot of writing material taking a year off.

  2. Elizabeth January 5, 2016 at 3:56 pm #

    Kayla, I’ve really been worried about you, but am so glad you’re back! Whatever happened in 2015, it now belongs in the “refinement and education” category, and you can use it to make you and others wiser and stronger. Sending you much love! Elizabeth

    • Kayla Gulick January 5, 2016 at 4:01 pm #

      Hey!! I missed you. We faced sin, cancer, death and more in 2015 and it was frankly a year I hope disappears from existence. But! I am finally ready to reactivate this blog with life and look forward to catching up with everyone!

  3. sophia208 January 5, 2016 at 4:52 pm #

    Kayla delighted you are back. Been praying for you this past week.
    New beginnings, new year , new Grace , new Mercy – for us all!!! Will be praying 😃

    • Kayla Gulick January 5, 2016 at 5:50 pm #

      Yes! New mercies! Keep those prayers coming!!!

  4. Bridget A. Thomas January 5, 2016 at 6:50 pm #

    Welcome back! I’ve been thinking about you. Sending you big hugs!!

    • Kayla Gulick January 5, 2016 at 7:34 pm #

      Thank you!! The warm welcome is so good for my heart 🙂

  5. Kimberly January 5, 2016 at 8:14 pm #

    You have been such a blessing to do many. Such an Honest. Frank, Fresh perspective always. May you never be SILENT…your voice is a GIFT…..

    • Kayla Gulick January 5, 2016 at 9:21 pm #

      Thank you. That’s real sweet of you to say!

  6. howsyourlovelife January 6, 2016 at 10:06 am #

    It’s so good to see you back! Can’t wait to hear what you’ve learned.

    • Kayla Gulick January 6, 2016 at 10:23 am #

      You’re one of my favorite people. Ever. *Hugs*

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